Stop it, you bunch of idiot salty water!
I command you to come back to my eyes.
Oh don’t even start with the sob.
There’s no more gravity to catch you,
For it’s looking for anything else but you,
don’t waste yourself for tearing out of my eyes,
Don’t! Just DON’T!”
on the same poetry every night and day,
and you pronounced each pray until it came back to life.”
I want to be indispensable to you.
I want you to crave me, to beg my name, my shadow, my whisper, my linger touch upon the sad stars every single night in you entire life.”
What if i told you that i’m not good enough
even for myself to love
While i always look away
every time the girl inside the mirror stare me back
Every time i walk out of the door
I take a deep deep breath
and hold it everywhere i go
Until i finally coming back again into my own nest
Just i exhale, knowing parts of me will be shattered on the floor
So i’ll go to sleep at night
Know i should put myself together in the morning
Just to survive day to day like this
I don’t know when the last time i smell roses they put under my nose
But i keep holding the thorns,
tighter and tighter everyday
As blood is no longer satisfy me
But its pain comfort me,
Covering me better than the cold moonlight peeked behind the curtains.
Stop praising me as if i’m strong,
I am just good at pretending.
And I swear I never will,
I have too much pride to kneel on the floor with tears all over,
Beg for those who doesn’t want to stay,
I don’t want to insist watering a flower on bad soil that refused to grow,
For I know better it would spreading poison instead of love.
I won’t be as pathetic as my mother,
So if you want to leave, just leave,
I will stare with my own pride,
I will stand tall and pretend not to hear the sound of a heart breaking,
I probably will help you to pack,
Just to show you I really am that strong,
But please don’t stay with one shoe outside the door while the other one stays.”
If you found my dead body today,
It is probably because I cried while driving again,
It happens every time I remembering us, Not you and me,
But the other us,
The one who still believe in romance,
And steal kisses when nobody see,
Humming about love songs that we’re too tired to sing.
If you found my dead body tonight,
It’s probably because I’m drowning myself over tears again,
And I am sorry for all the scattered mirrors that has spreading around the bathtub,
It’s just I hate the girl inside it so much,
The one who forgot how to love in the right way,
And forgot her way back home to you.